I am...

... Emotionally messed up. I really can't get into this, because someone I know might read this, and the last thing I need is for people to get into my grill. I really wanna blog about it though. 

I need an Apple life

I am such a huuuuuuuuge fan of Apple Inc. I want an Ipod touch, Iphone, Macbook Air, Nike+Ipod thing, and yea. It's so expensive though :s haha, but when I'm older, and touring with my band in the future, I'll be making money, then I'll have my Apple life!

I forgot to say Happy New Year!!! To... My readers? I had a New Years party at my house because my generous parents always have parties on special occasions at our house with a bunch of people(people from church and family friends and such) I had a great time and will be posting a video of the countdown at my house on Youtube. It got really, really, hot in my house and my skin got all oily and a bit of my eyeliner was starting to smudge. I didn't care much though because I was having so much fun!!!

I have recently started editing videos. I've always had a video editing program on my computer, it's just I never used it. I'm kind of addicted to it now. It all started because I wanted to make a video for my science project. I figured it would be the coolest and easiest option instead of doing a speech, powerpoint, or paper. So yea, I'm still working on it, because I kept holding it off. Now I have two projects for school that's late. I should be done after winter break. I go back to school on January 5th, and the semester ends four weeks after winter break, and I'll get 10% off of my full grade on my projects just because it's late!!!! Last quarter I got straight A's except for one freakin' B in Literature class!!! Only because I forgot to turn in this paper that barely has anything to do with my intelligence. This quarter, I think I'm gonna do worse :( I'll never make the honor roll. I've been slacking. I would hold off things and become lazy. I can't do that anymore. Wow look at me ranting about my grades. lol. But I digress. This paragraph wasn't even meant to be about grades. Wow. I am such a dork!

Right now it is 7:26 am PST. I stayed up all night. My eyes hurt. My legs are cold cuz I haven't been under a blanket all night, and I'm wearing shorts. I'm gonna go to sleep after I watch the Tyra show ;) Then I'll try to wake up in time to watch Ellen. lol. I am a dork 8-)

I'm currently really into this Scottish/Irish British Pop/Rock singer Declan Galbraith. I really like his You and Me album. I think he would sing much better if he wasn't so nasally. It really bothers me, but I still love him, especially when he was younger. Wow. He amazes me. I wish I was that talented.

Yesterday my gymnastics training was cancelled. That sucked cuz I had nothing else to do except work on my science project, watch tv, eat toaster stroodles, and be lazy. I could go outside to go jogging cuz it was too dark, no one was on Myspace, and I just had nothing to do. My mom told me to clean my room, but I was like, "Nah, I'd rather work on my science project." I used to eat when I was bored... That didn't really encourage my skinny jeans to fit properly at that time, but that was like a year ago, and now I'm in shape and yea. Now I usually just sing when I'm bored. lol. 

Winter break has been so good to me! I've been away from that drama filled box called school for half a month, and I've been away from that guy in one of my earlier entries. I should really stop talking about school :/

Currently, I'm watching the only interesting thing on basic cable. Kid shows. They're always so colorful. I don't know about you, but I enjoy SOME kiddy shows :p

Now that I recently got a new hair straightener(my old one broke), I can cut my bangs, then I can go get my layered hair cut I've wanted since June '08. The "emo" layered cut. I'm not a poser. My hair's just really thick.

I should stop this entry now. It's getting way too long.

-PEACE OUT

Confused

Ok, so there's this guy I like, and I've known him for like a year, and he's been starting to flirt with me. I don't want to make any moves, because maybe I'm getting mixed signals. I think that I think he's flirting because I'm emotionally messed up. I have no idea what to do. I have one person to talk about this to, but she doesn't know him. OMG. IDK!

Blogging...

...feels better on a laptop for some reason. lol. This isn't my laptop I'm blogging on, but I really want one. I prefer a Mac ;) lol. If anyone's got $2,000 dollars they want to lend me, give me a call. haha. This isn't really that much of a real blog, I just felt like blogging more.
I'm really disappointed that Bring Me The Horizon and All Time Low isn't on the Vans Warped Tour '09 ='(
There are barely any bands on the tour this year :p that sucks.
(more ranting)...........
Something that bothers me a lot, is posers. More specifically, emo posers. I know this girl who's goth and I asked her why she turned goth all of a sudden and she said, "Because goth people are cool." That bothered the heck out of me. It doesn't matter if ur goth/emo or not, it's who you are and how you act. She's still a loser btw. Just because you lsiten to certain type of music, or wear a certain type of clothing, or read a certain book, or watch some movie, it doesn't make you cool. WTF is up with retards!!!

My lates pet peeve...

People who can't get over people yelling at them need to toughen up. I don't like people yelling at me either, but I don't start crying over it. I know this is a weird topic, but I just needed something to rant about. I was just ranting about it to my younger cousin just now so I was like, "Why not just blog about it?" I didn't have anything to blog about in the first place.

This is how the story goes...
My other younger cousin got yelled at(more like got talked to in a harsh tone) by my older cousin because she was doing stupid stuff and causing problems. The younger cousin has a problem with people telling her no, or disagreeing from her. She also annoys me because she lies way too much, but that's another story.

Anyway, I just want to say, it's really annoying when people pout about stupid things, especially if they deserve it. People get yelled at, get accused, argue, disagree, and get scolded in their life. People should get used to that. I don't know how people like my younger cousin are gonna survive in the world if they keep this kind of view of everything up.

Christmas

Christmas is so different now... It's been different since 6th grade. I've changed and I feel different about some things. I used to be super psyched for Christmas and always got that nervous feeling in my stomach a week before. Now, I just pretty much think of it as another family gathering. This year, whenever someone asks me what I want for Christmas, I tel them I don't want anything, because this holiday is pretty much just an excuse for people to give presents. I know they don't want to get me anything, they just feel forced to, because it's not polite... I think. Same with birthdays. I don't feel any more excited than I do about other holidays. Now, I just draw on my face on special events. lol. I have so many things that I want, but I honestly would feel better if people gave me things from their hearts, like my best friend Jacque. For my birthday a few months ago, she got me the most thoughtful gift I've ever gotten. A decision maker thing. It was like $10 I'm guessing, but it was thoughtful because I always go to her for advice and stuff, so whenever I can't get ahold of her, I can just use that. Money and gift cards are unthoughtful, unplanned, last minute, and meaningless. I mean I understand, if you don't know what to get someone, but that just shows that you don't care about them enough to really spend the time sitting and thinking about what they want. I just want people to think about things like this. I want all the many people I care about to know that I actually care about. I guess that's one thing you can think about tonight when u rest that head on the pillow ;)


-PEACE

Not Me.

I type as if I have so much energy sometimes. Lots of exclamation marks, smileys, LOLs, stuff like that. I just want who ever reads this to know ;)

I just wanted to check in again. I haven't blogged since... Two days ago? I need a straightener, I took a crap load of pics that I will be posting in my next blog, my video editing program is being disfuncional, I'm trying to use big words, and I need to lose like 3 lbs :/ 

I hope I come up with something interesting to blog about. haha