Confused

Ok, so there's this guy I like, and I've known him for like a year, and he's been starting to flirt with me. I don't want to make any moves, because maybe I'm getting mixed signals. I think that I think he's flirting because I'm emotionally messed up. I have no idea what to do. I have one person to talk about this to, but she doesn't know him. OMG. IDK!

Blogging...

...feels better on a laptop for some reason. lol. This isn't my laptop I'm blogging on, but I really want one. I prefer a Mac ;) lol. If anyone's got $2,000 dollars they want to lend me, give me a call. haha. This isn't really that much of a real blog, I just felt like blogging more.
I'm really disappointed that Bring Me The Horizon and All Time Low isn't on the Vans Warped Tour '09 ='(
There are barely any bands on the tour this year :p that sucks.
(more ranting)...........
Something that bothers me a lot, is posers. More specifically, emo posers. I know this girl who's goth and I asked her why she turned goth all of a sudden and she said, "Because goth people are cool." That bothered the heck out of me. It doesn't matter if ur goth/emo or not, it's who you are and how you act. She's still a loser btw. Just because you lsiten to certain type of music, or wear a certain type of clothing, or read a certain book, or watch some movie, it doesn't make you cool. WTF is up with retards!!!

My lates pet peeve...

People who can't get over people yelling at them need to toughen up. I don't like people yelling at me either, but I don't start crying over it. I know this is a weird topic, but I just needed something to rant about. I was just ranting about it to my younger cousin just now so I was like, "Why not just blog about it?" I didn't have anything to blog about in the first place.

This is how the story goes...
My other younger cousin got yelled at(more like got talked to in a harsh tone) by my older cousin because she was doing stupid stuff and causing problems. The younger cousin has a problem with people telling her no, or disagreeing from her. She also annoys me because she lies way too much, but that's another story.

Anyway, I just want to say, it's really annoying when people pout about stupid things, especially if they deserve it. People get yelled at, get accused, argue, disagree, and get scolded in their life. People should get used to that. I don't know how people like my younger cousin are gonna survive in the world if they keep this kind of view of everything up.

Christmas

Christmas is so different now... It's been different since 6th grade. I've changed and I feel different about some things. I used to be super psyched for Christmas and always got that nervous feeling in my stomach a week before. Now, I just pretty much think of it as another family gathering. This year, whenever someone asks me what I want for Christmas, I tel them I don't want anything, because this holiday is pretty much just an excuse for people to give presents. I know they don't want to get me anything, they just feel forced to, because it's not polite... I think. Same with birthdays. I don't feel any more excited than I do about other holidays. Now, I just draw on my face on special events. lol. I have so many things that I want, but I honestly would feel better if people gave me things from their hearts, like my best friend Jacque. For my birthday a few months ago, she got me the most thoughtful gift I've ever gotten. A decision maker thing. It was like $10 I'm guessing, but it was thoughtful because I always go to her for advice and stuff, so whenever I can't get ahold of her, I can just use that. Money and gift cards are unthoughtful, unplanned, last minute, and meaningless. I mean I understand, if you don't know what to get someone, but that just shows that you don't care about them enough to really spend the time sitting and thinking about what they want. I just want people to think about things like this. I want all the many people I care about to know that I actually care about. I guess that's one thing you can think about tonight when u rest that head on the pillow ;)


-PEACE

Not Me.

I type as if I have so much energy sometimes. Lots of exclamation marks, smileys, LOLs, stuff like that. I just want who ever reads this to know ;)

I just wanted to check in again. I haven't blogged since... Two days ago? I need a straightener, I took a crap load of pics that I will be posting in my next blog, my video editing program is being disfuncional, I'm trying to use big words, and I need to lose like 3 lbs :/ 

I hope I come up with something interesting to blog about. haha

This Thing...

Ok, so there's this guy at school that I've hated since 5th grade. If you know me well enough, you'd already who I'll be talking about. He was new to my school in 5th grade. I met him in band and I had a crush on him, which was a mistake I made because I was dumb.  I knew he was a big jerk, but I still liked him. I was mean to him though. He made fun of me everyday. One day, he made this joke about me having a "mustache"(I know, really immature right?) That same comment carried on to 6th grade.  It got really annoying and some other stupid guys started doing it. Most of my depression and anger came from him. In 6th grade, I stopped liking him. I started HATING him. He was the only person I TRULY HATED from the bottom of my heart. I'm in 7th grade now and he's still making fun of me.  I had a great time at the first dance of the year until he ruined it.  I punched him, but it obviously didn't hurt him as much as he had hurt me. The last 15 minutes of the dance, I was depressed and full of rage. I looked over and saw him slow dance with this girl I hate. That's when I realized there's a part of me that likes him. A really, really, really, really, really, small part. I was really confused and disappointed in myself for that. For the rest of the day, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I would think, "I hate him so much!" to, "Why would he dance with her!" to, "I want to die." I got off the bus, and walked to my room, then out of no where, I started crying... bawling. My brother was there. H predicted why I was crying and he was right, because I would come home a lot bitching about him. Now, I have decided not to talk to him, or look at him, or talk about him. I've tried to erase him from my mind. A few days ago, during P.E., he asked me a question. All I did was nod, or shake my head. It wasn't that I was trying not to talk to him, but it was because it was so hard to talk to him. I honestly don't know why. 

No, I won't tell you the names, but it u know me well enough, you know who there are. That's why I really hope that no one I know reads this... :/

-shwow

P.S. I don't like him anymore 2/28/09

Vans Warped Tour '09

I'm excited! I know it's eight months away, but I'm going to preorder tickets and bring like $30-$50. I'm going to the Portland, OR one on August, 16.  Anyone else going???

I've been thinking...

Why do people think of lesbians as sexual and gays as sweet and cuddly? I'm not saying that everyone thinks that way, but I know I do, and a lot of people I know do.

Lots to Blog About

I have so much to blog about, but I can't :/ I'm just briefly shecking in ;)

KANE!

Thanks for reading my first blog! I had a big grin on my face as I was reading! I thought you'd like to know that you're my inspiration of blogging. I've always wanted to do it, and watched Joe's vlogs and blogs, but wasn't really motivated. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT IS ABOUT YOU THAT DRIVES ME NUTS! But I love it.

-YOU ROCK KANE!

MY FIRST BLOG ON THIS SITE!!!

I have no pictures, interests, or anything, because I just created this account like half an hour ago. I'll be posting pictures later on and my profile should be ready and beautiful by tomorrow! lol. It's not like anyone's gonna read this anyway. I would like to make a shout out to Kane Turner who is another blogger. I don't know why I love him so much, but Kane, if you read this, I'm a HUGE fan of you, and I don't know why. I would be tremendously flattered if you talked to me! <333

-PEACE