Ok

From now on, I will only blog when I have a huge burst of emotions, or when I need to rant about something. :) I've already been doing that anyway

I'm gonna....

... Post a pic of HIM on my next blog if I have the guts to! lol. I found a really amazing pic of him! All of his football pics are really good.

Jacque!

My Awesome friend Jacque is the best person ever! Smart, fit, friendly, polite, obedient, responsible, pretty, musical, talented, insightful, humble (really, really humble), gives good advice, sympathetic, funny, and really super duper awesome. Oh yea, I know ur jealous, cuz she's a one-in-a-million. OMG!!! 

-YOU ROCK JACQUE LU!

OMG GIRL MOMENT!!!!!!

Ok, so there's this guy at school that I really like, and he's a really, really, really, cute nerd that doesn't watch tv. We're like pretty good friends now, and every now and then, we'd exchange those types of glances. So like 5 minutes ago, I just decided to search him up on Myspace. I wasn't expecting to find him on there cuz he doesn't watch tv, but I saw him!!!!!! So I added him and I got really excited and gave me an adrenaline rush that made me tap my toes real fast, bite my fingers and knuckles, take deep breaths, made my heart race, and gave me enough adrenaline to type up a blog entry and I'm typing so fast right now, and I just looked up, and I was like, "Woah. I typed really fast." OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to tell all my friends! Oh, and his pic is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOTT!!!!!!!!!!! He plays on a football team, but not for our school. It's a picture of him sitting on a bench in football and the sun is at the PERFECT angle, and his beautiful blonde hair looks so shiny and bright, and his blue eyes look AMAZING beneath his eyelashes, and he's not smiling in the pic and not looking at the camera, which makes him look like a model. lol. He has a really, really, really cute smile though! He's got braces which make him look super cute, but he doesn't look like he needs braces anymore though.

Hooooooooooly crap!

I GAINED 5 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH! 

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The world's gone emo!

So many people I know, especially from my school, have gone goth, or emo. All the uncool nerds are starting to be goth too. WTF! Last year I was a very sad person because I actually had problems, and yes, I WAS emo, but nowadays, the majority of emos do it to conform. And now some stores like Fred Meyers, Kohl's, Target, Walmart, etc., are putting skulls on their clothing, and it looks awfully poser-ish. To some people, whatever has a skull on it, or is black, is emo, and they'll buy it.

Emos are kinda known for their side bangs that go in the face. People are now brushing their hair from clear across their head, to the other side, past their face. There's a reason why emos are known for their bangs, they're bangs! They're not hair transfers. If you're gonna try emo bangs, at least cut them!

Then there are "emos" that are just preps but try to be in style. That's one of the reasons why the world is going emo. Some ditzy popular girl puts on dark makeup and ripped jeans, then the rest of the school does it too. Hot Topic gets new customers, but loses their old, true emo/goth customers.

I really love Twilight. The books and the movie. I love it because it's what I LIKE. People, especially the poser emos, like it because it has vampires in it. Since when was Twilight an emo thing? It barely has anything to do with vampires, it's about LOVE. The books and movie is not the least bit morbid either. WTF. 

My definition of emo is, someone who's emotional, specifically depressed. Someone who's goth, just looks freaky and wears like black stuff and stuff. someone who's a poser, looks as much as a certain stereotype as they can, even if they don't like it, and lie to themselves and others just to be accepted. Now that is just pathetic and sad, and my heart goes out to those people. Maybe, if everyone just acted themselves for a day, they would find some pretty awesome friends.

I'm gonna start...

... posting up poems. Pretty cheesy, but I want something to save it with other than my notebook. ;)

P.S. Nickasaur is on Itunes! Download now!

The big "L" word...

... I'm under the influence of it... and I'm talking about LUST. 

I've been so jealous lately about this guy, and it's not even funny, like I am going insane over things I shouldn't even worry about. Of course I don't tell anyone except for one person, and I don't show my true emotions. I'm always "happy" and I don't have a choice. Valentine's day will be the day that I find out if he likes me or not. I think he does, but then he's older than me so he might not like me as much as I like him. *SIGH!!!!* SO CONFUSING! He's in high school, and I'm in middle school. That sucks.

My school's dances suck! I'm not even gonna get into the details. There will be a Valentine's day dance coming up and I am NOT looking forward to it. It'll be worse than the last dance I went to(details in another entry). 

I hate the menstrual cycle.

Middle school sucks. Everyone's so immature and doesn't listen to anyone. It's so "cool" to be a rebel. psh. Then get used to wearing orange suits and eating stale bread and drinking water.

Anyway, this is just another one of my rant posts because I don't have enough time to actually blog, and I'm in too much pain to blog... Boys have it so good.

omg

I think I'm on my period :O o.O

I am...

... Emotionally messed up. I really can't get into this, because someone I know might read this, and the last thing I need is for people to get into my grill. I really wanna blog about it though. 

I need an Apple life

I am such a huuuuuuuuge fan of Apple Inc. I want an Ipod touch, Iphone, Macbook Air, Nike+Ipod thing, and yea. It's so expensive though :s haha, but when I'm older, and touring with my band in the future, I'll be making money, then I'll have my Apple life!

I forgot to say Happy New Year!!! To... My readers? I had a New Years party at my house because my generous parents always have parties on special occasions at our house with a bunch of people(people from church and family friends and such) I had a great time and will be posting a video of the countdown at my house on Youtube. It got really, really, hot in my house and my skin got all oily and a bit of my eyeliner was starting to smudge. I didn't care much though because I was having so much fun!!!

I have recently started editing videos. I've always had a video editing program on my computer, it's just I never used it. I'm kind of addicted to it now. It all started because I wanted to make a video for my science project. I figured it would be the coolest and easiest option instead of doing a speech, powerpoint, or paper. So yea, I'm still working on it, because I kept holding it off. Now I have two projects for school that's late. I should be done after winter break. I go back to school on January 5th, and the semester ends four weeks after winter break, and I'll get 10% off of my full grade on my projects just because it's late!!!! Last quarter I got straight A's except for one freakin' B in Literature class!!! Only because I forgot to turn in this paper that barely has anything to do with my intelligence. This quarter, I think I'm gonna do worse :( I'll never make the honor roll. I've been slacking. I would hold off things and become lazy. I can't do that anymore. Wow look at me ranting about my grades. lol. But I digress. This paragraph wasn't even meant to be about grades. Wow. I am such a dork!

Right now it is 7:26 am PST. I stayed up all night. My eyes hurt. My legs are cold cuz I haven't been under a blanket all night, and I'm wearing shorts. I'm gonna go to sleep after I watch the Tyra show ;) Then I'll try to wake up in time to watch Ellen. lol. I am a dork 8-)

I'm currently really into this Scottish/Irish British Pop/Rock singer Declan Galbraith. I really like his You and Me album. I think he would sing much better if he wasn't so nasally. It really bothers me, but I still love him, especially when he was younger. Wow. He amazes me. I wish I was that talented.

Yesterday my gymnastics training was cancelled. That sucked cuz I had nothing else to do except work on my science project, watch tv, eat toaster stroodles, and be lazy. I could go outside to go jogging cuz it was too dark, no one was on Myspace, and I just had nothing to do. My mom told me to clean my room, but I was like, "Nah, I'd rather work on my science project." I used to eat when I was bored... That didn't really encourage my skinny jeans to fit properly at that time, but that was like a year ago, and now I'm in shape and yea. Now I usually just sing when I'm bored. lol. 

Winter break has been so good to me! I've been away from that drama filled box called school for half a month, and I've been away from that guy in one of my earlier entries. I should really stop talking about school :/

Currently, I'm watching the only interesting thing on basic cable. Kid shows. They're always so colorful. I don't know about you, but I enjoy SOME kiddy shows :p

Now that I recently got a new hair straightener(my old one broke), I can cut my bangs, then I can go get my layered hair cut I've wanted since June '08. The "emo" layered cut. I'm not a poser. My hair's just really thick.

I should stop this entry now. It's getting way too long.

-PEACE OUT

Confused

Ok, so there's this guy I like, and I've known him for like a year, and he's been starting to flirt with me. I don't want to make any moves, because maybe I'm getting mixed signals. I think that I think he's flirting because I'm emotionally messed up. I have no idea what to do. I have one person to talk about this to, but she doesn't know him. OMG. IDK!

Blogging...

...feels better on a laptop for some reason. lol. This isn't my laptop I'm blogging on, but I really want one. I prefer a Mac ;) lol. If anyone's got $2,000 dollars they want to lend me, give me a call. haha. This isn't really that much of a real blog, I just felt like blogging more.
I'm really disappointed that Bring Me The Horizon and All Time Low isn't on the Vans Warped Tour '09 ='(
There are barely any bands on the tour this year :p that sucks.
(more ranting)...........
Something that bothers me a lot, is posers. More specifically, emo posers. I know this girl who's goth and I asked her why she turned goth all of a sudden and she said, "Because goth people are cool." That bothered the heck out of me. It doesn't matter if ur goth/emo or not, it's who you are and how you act. She's still a loser btw. Just because you lsiten to certain type of music, or wear a certain type of clothing, or read a certain book, or watch some movie, it doesn't make you cool. WTF is up with retards!!!

My lates pet peeve...

People who can't get over people yelling at them need to toughen up. I don't like people yelling at me either, but I don't start crying over it. I know this is a weird topic, but I just needed something to rant about. I was just ranting about it to my younger cousin just now so I was like, "Why not just blog about it?" I didn't have anything to blog about in the first place.

This is how the story goes...
My other younger cousin got yelled at(more like got talked to in a harsh tone) by my older cousin because she was doing stupid stuff and causing problems. The younger cousin has a problem with people telling her no, or disagreeing from her. She also annoys me because she lies way too much, but that's another story.

Anyway, I just want to say, it's really annoying when people pout about stupid things, especially if they deserve it. People get yelled at, get accused, argue, disagree, and get scolded in their life. People should get used to that. I don't know how people like my younger cousin are gonna survive in the world if they keep this kind of view of everything up.

Christmas

Christmas is so different now... It's been different since 6th grade. I've changed and I feel different about some things. I used to be super psyched for Christmas and always got that nervous feeling in my stomach a week before. Now, I just pretty much think of it as another family gathering. This year, whenever someone asks me what I want for Christmas, I tel them I don't want anything, because this holiday is pretty much just an excuse for people to give presents. I know they don't want to get me anything, they just feel forced to, because it's not polite... I think. Same with birthdays. I don't feel any more excited than I do about other holidays. Now, I just draw on my face on special events. lol. I have so many things that I want, but I honestly would feel better if people gave me things from their hearts, like my best friend Jacque. For my birthday a few months ago, she got me the most thoughtful gift I've ever gotten. A decision maker thing. It was like $10 I'm guessing, but it was thoughtful because I always go to her for advice and stuff, so whenever I can't get ahold of her, I can just use that. Money and gift cards are unthoughtful, unplanned, last minute, and meaningless. I mean I understand, if you don't know what to get someone, but that just shows that you don't care about them enough to really spend the time sitting and thinking about what they want. I just want people to think about things like this. I want all the many people I care about to know that I actually care about. I guess that's one thing you can think about tonight when u rest that head on the pillow ;)


-PEACE

Not Me.

I type as if I have so much energy sometimes. Lots of exclamation marks, smileys, LOLs, stuff like that. I just want who ever reads this to know ;)

I just wanted to check in again. I haven't blogged since... Two days ago? I need a straightener, I took a crap load of pics that I will be posting in my next blog, my video editing program is being disfuncional, I'm trying to use big words, and I need to lose like 3 lbs :/ 

I hope I come up with something interesting to blog about. haha

This Thing...

Ok, so there's this guy at school that I've hated since 5th grade. If you know me well enough, you'd already who I'll be talking about. He was new to my school in 5th grade. I met him in band and I had a crush on him, which was a mistake I made because I was dumb.  I knew he was a big jerk, but I still liked him. I was mean to him though. He made fun of me everyday. One day, he made this joke about me having a "mustache"(I know, really immature right?) That same comment carried on to 6th grade.  It got really annoying and some other stupid guys started doing it. Most of my depression and anger came from him. In 6th grade, I stopped liking him. I started HATING him. He was the only person I TRULY HATED from the bottom of my heart. I'm in 7th grade now and he's still making fun of me.  I had a great time at the first dance of the year until he ruined it.  I punched him, but it obviously didn't hurt him as much as he had hurt me. The last 15 minutes of the dance, I was depressed and full of rage. I looked over and saw him slow dance with this girl I hate. That's when I realized there's a part of me that likes him. A really, really, really, really, really, small part. I was really confused and disappointed in myself for that. For the rest of the day, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I would think, "I hate him so much!" to, "Why would he dance with her!" to, "I want to die." I got off the bus, and walked to my room, then out of no where, I started crying... bawling. My brother was there. H predicted why I was crying and he was right, because I would come home a lot bitching about him. Now, I have decided not to talk to him, or look at him, or talk about him. I've tried to erase him from my mind. A few days ago, during P.E., he asked me a question. All I did was nod, or shake my head. It wasn't that I was trying not to talk to him, but it was because it was so hard to talk to him. I honestly don't know why. 

No, I won't tell you the names, but it u know me well enough, you know who there are. That's why I really hope that no one I know reads this... :/

-shwow

P.S. I don't like him anymore 2/28/09

Vans Warped Tour '09

I'm excited! I know it's eight months away, but I'm going to preorder tickets and bring like $30-$50. I'm going to the Portland, OR one on August, 16.  Anyone else going???

I've been thinking...

Why do people think of lesbians as sexual and gays as sweet and cuddly? I'm not saying that everyone thinks that way, but I know I do, and a lot of people I know do.

Lots to Blog About

I have so much to blog about, but I can't :/ I'm just briefly shecking in ;)